Had a late night yesterday, but I was glad that afterall, I decided to go out and had a breather though it was a different friend that I met up with. My one-and-only oddball gf. Yes, she is so weirdly in-tune to my interests and likes...but still differ abit in our thinkings.
Went to beach, one of my fav places to sort out my thoughts, (honestly, there isn't much places to consider which provide serenity), it was a nice chat..more than nice as we exchange our opinions, analysed the situations, about how powerful the mind is, traded analogies (quite lame and ridiculous for some)...nothing pressurizing, or heavy, just like a light snack before the big feast (the real problem underneath that is looming to surface).
After a quick bite at Starbucks and slowly sipping our JCF and GTF, we proceeded to a more secluded part of the coast, more privacy, to enjoy WAVES therapy. It was a good therapy...felt so much better though trying hard not think about how dreadful it will be to be at home.
Quoted from a friend
"i think there's a mismatch in what he wants and what you want, he is contented
you want to experience life"
EXACTLY. He hit the nail on the head. I had not call him as a buddy for nothing. Love you...you are one true friend who never hestitate to "slap" me back to reality and at the same time, understands fully what my hearts is tugging at.
Do You Know...
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Moi
Do you know...
Why did the wind blow?
Where did the clouds go?
Whom does the flowers dance for?
And even now, do you know,
Why did the wind stop blowing?
Why did the clouds stop moving?
Why did the flowers stop their dancing?
Still, do you know...
Why did the wind blow?
Where did the clouds go?
Whom does the flowers dance for?
And even now, do you know,
Why did the wind stop blowing?
Why did the clouds stop moving?
Why did the flowers stop their dancing?
Still, do you know...
On The Brink...
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Moi
I am on the brink of losing it, losing my sanity over something that is beyond my control. I am trapped by circumstances and/ or by the previous choices that I had made that had led me to where I am right now. The more I tried not to think about it, the more I am thinking about it, because I kept reminding myself not to think about it. But subconsciously, I am thinking about it every sickening seconds of my life. See, signs of losing sanity that I am not really talking sense right now. Even beginning to feel kinda suicidal...but lack the courage. The tiniest bit of compassion I had for my loved ones is keeping me in check. Seriously, how long that tiniest bit is going to sustain my sanity, I totally had no idea. Maybe when all hell break loose, I lose consciousness, self-awareness. I am hanging on, by only a fraying thin thread, which will snap and give way any minute.
Day THREE
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Today is Day 3, and I am still feeling terrible, if not more, neither is it any lesser. The worst part, I had to come back to work and put on a pretense. But, I fared quite badly, co-workers asked me why I look so glum. Er...didn't really bother to explain which would only be getting myself drowned by more and more questions. This is really hard, and time is passing so slowly...almost to the extent of dragging. What a way to end my 2008!
What is it that I wanted? A way out? An answer to my dilemmas? An escaped route? My oddball gf called me CJ which stands for Coward/ Contradictory J, but aren't we all, escaping every now and then, in our daily lives? We all are, admit or not, and I am sick of it literally.
I WANT TO BREAK FREE, I WANT TO ESCAPE, I WANT MY FREEDOM BACK, I WANT TO FEEL LIBERATED!!
But I can't...
What is it that I wanted? A way out? An answer to my dilemmas? An escaped route? My oddball gf called me CJ which stands for Coward/ Contradictory J, but aren't we all, escaping every now and then, in our daily lives? We all are, admit or not, and I am sick of it literally.
I WANT TO BREAK FREE, I WANT TO ESCAPE, I WANT MY FREEDOM BACK, I WANT TO FEEL LIBERATED!!
But I can't...
Excerpt II
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Tears flowed like nobody business, somehow, the tear glands are hyperactive now...and it is causing pain...but not as painful as heartache. Like a cold knife, stabbing hard, repeatedly, at the same wounded spot. And I am bleeding, silently, I am screaming, but no words came out.
I want to run, as far as my legs could take me, endlessly...without stopping for even a single second, until...I am out and away from this jaded life.
Who...can bring me away, and help me to break free, or make me disappear into the atmosphere? Can you?
I want to run, as far as my legs could take me, endlessly...without stopping for even a single second, until...I am out and away from this jaded life.
Who...can bring me away, and help me to break free, or make me disappear into the atmosphere? Can you?
Excerpt I
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Moi
I am breaking at the seams. I feel terrible and miserable now, and I know he is as confused as I am, with my non-chalant attitude towards him. But I don't know how to react or put up a pretense. The last thing I ever wanted to do is to hurt him but yet it is hurting me so much inside me, like the soul screaming to get out of this lifeless shell, or like the lungs gasping for air. How am I capable of making my loved ones understand what I am going through, and that this isn't any easier for them as it is for me. The pain, the guilt, the explanation. I longed to break free, and somehow, the emotions and feelings got intensified to an almost uncontrollable degree.
Trapped...Helplessly
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Moi
I wanted to scream out loud but I was unable to, I wanted to escape but my legs wouldn't take me, I wanted to break free but my strength left me. I felt trapped...the feelings hadn't been so strong before...so trapped...within my soul...what else can I do? But to curb these strong emotions trapped within me...how much longer can I hold out? Was he right by saying that I am really not happy? It was all but a facade? I wished I could talk to him right now, yet I don't wish to worry him unnecessary. Just helplessly trapped...forever in this jaded life...jaded soul.
On The Very Night Of Christmas Day
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Moi
(i am typing this so that you don't have to suffer pain in the eyes and brain trying to decipher my handwriting..you'll know why in a minute)
Music: Kevin Kern {Imagination's light}
Mood: Mixed
Kinda having mixed feelings, albeit the soothing contemporary piano accompanied in the background, I am still feeling frustrated. Can't seem to get the PC booted up for no apparent reason, mouse not working and it gets on my nerves trying to manoeuvre my way around just by using the keyboard, which is unfortunately, my only ally to get where I want to be (read: on the web). I am desperate, in a need (that's an understatement!!), to write something, to pen my thoughts. Finally, I gave up (the idea of using a PC), instead, to turn to doing it manually. Yes, back to basics, with a pen and a piece of paper. It is hard even to try to get a pen that can write smoothly. Even now before I get to the gist, my handwriting is getting messy, illegible to the core. Urgh...ok, take 3 deep breaths....and count to 10. It is not so difficult after all, I feel so much better now, able to recollect my thoughts. That were, just awhile ago, running frenzy, literally.
I am at home, yet not so at home. Just that, this used to be my home, (it's still is, in some sense), where I spent most of my adolescent years and adulthood. At this very moment, I enjoyed every moment of my solitary. I used to dread loneliness, I still do, very little though. In actual fact, there are so many things that I now enjoyed doing it alone, because being alone, sets me thinking about lotsa stuff. Thinking back, if I were given a choice, I'll probably not choose the path that I am on right now. Not that I am suffering or what, and in some ways, I am truly blessed. But somehow, something is missing in my life. Like a missing puzzle, a void that cannot be ignored. And that missing piece proved its significance to be equally important and essential to complete the whole picture.
Quite often, I am feeling exactly the way I am feeling right now and I can't quite explain it explicitly. In the same way, I am not capable to fully expressing how it tugs at my heart, and the deficit in my vocab doesn't help much either. I had always question my existence, if I belonged to to another part of the world. How would things turn out to be if I had taken a different route? But being brought up in an asian country with asian values, I am less spontaneous than my fairer counterparts. There are so much to life, and yet here I am, stuck in this current situation, with nowhere to go. My choices are limited by the many people that will get affected by me. I was no longer just responsible for myself. I longed to be free.
How wishful my thinking is, that I'll be able to turn back the hands of time, that I may revived some of the regrets in my life.
Yet deep down in my heart, I know that I am dreaming and I should face up to reality. Seriously, I wished I am dreaming now, and that all these are facade and will disappeared once I opened my eyes. And then to find myself, in London or Paris, at a sidewalk cafe, people watching. A camera slung around my neck, while sipping at my cuppa of capz, I continued to snap pictures of the beautiful people who walked by me. And perhaps, I'll find that someone who is doing the exact same things as me. Someone who shared the same thoughts, vision and inspirations. Someone who can translates my thoughts, someone who can read me, someone...my very soulmate. I continued to dream, even though I know the possibility of this happening is somewhat similar to the near zero possibility that it will snow on this part of the planet, I still harbored this sweet sweet and irresistible dream of mine, dearly, close to my heart.
Now I wondered what Ed. C might be doing? Chuckled.
Music: Kevin Kern {Imagination's light}
Mood: Mixed
Kinda having mixed feelings, albeit the soothing contemporary piano accompanied in the background, I am still feeling frustrated. Can't seem to get the PC booted up for no apparent reason, mouse not working and it gets on my nerves trying to manoeuvre my way around just by using the keyboard, which is unfortunately, my only ally to get where I want to be (read: on the web). I am desperate, in a need (that's an understatement!!), to write something, to pen my thoughts. Finally, I gave up (the idea of using a PC), instead, to turn to doing it manually. Yes, back to basics, with a pen and a piece of paper. It is hard even to try to get a pen that can write smoothly. Even now before I get to the gist, my handwriting is getting messy, illegible to the core. Urgh...ok, take 3 deep breaths....and count to 10. It is not so difficult after all, I feel so much better now, able to recollect my thoughts. That were, just awhile ago, running frenzy, literally.
I am at home, yet not so at home. Just that, this used to be my home, (it's still is, in some sense), where I spent most of my adolescent years and adulthood. At this very moment, I enjoyed every moment of my solitary. I used to dread loneliness, I still do, very little though. In actual fact, there are so many things that I now enjoyed doing it alone, because being alone, sets me thinking about lotsa stuff. Thinking back, if I were given a choice, I'll probably not choose the path that I am on right now. Not that I am suffering or what, and in some ways, I am truly blessed. But somehow, something is missing in my life. Like a missing puzzle, a void that cannot be ignored. And that missing piece proved its significance to be equally important and essential to complete the whole picture.
Quite often, I am feeling exactly the way I am feeling right now and I can't quite explain it explicitly. In the same way, I am not capable to fully expressing how it tugs at my heart, and the deficit in my vocab doesn't help much either. I had always question my existence, if I belonged to to another part of the world. How would things turn out to be if I had taken a different route? But being brought up in an asian country with asian values, I am less spontaneous than my fairer counterparts. There are so much to life, and yet here I am, stuck in this current situation, with nowhere to go. My choices are limited by the many people that will get affected by me. I was no longer just responsible for myself. I longed to be free.
How wishful my thinking is, that I'll be able to turn back the hands of time, that I may revived some of the regrets in my life.
Yet deep down in my heart, I know that I am dreaming and I should face up to reality. Seriously, I wished I am dreaming now, and that all these are facade and will disappeared once I opened my eyes. And then to find myself, in London or Paris, at a sidewalk cafe, people watching. A camera slung around my neck, while sipping at my cuppa of capz, I continued to snap pictures of the beautiful people who walked by me. And perhaps, I'll find that someone who is doing the exact same things as me. Someone who shared the same thoughts, vision and inspirations. Someone who can translates my thoughts, someone who can read me, someone...my very soulmate. I continued to dream, even though I know the possibility of this happening is somewhat similar to the near zero possibility that it will snow on this part of the planet, I still harbored this sweet sweet and irresistible dream of mine, dearly, close to my heart.
Now I wondered what Ed. C might be doing? Chuckled.
Poetic II: Summer
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Moi
With the sun shine brightly up up high
Under the clear bluey blue blue skies
And the green green grassy fields nearby
How I wish the days slowly passing by
As I sunbathe lazily on the soft sandy beach
Plus the white waves splashing between my feet
Almost a haven in my wildest dreams
Ah...this is what Summer is to me
Poetic I: SPRING
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Daffodils and sun-kissed tulips
Sprouted brightly and colourfully
Fresh citrus sweet-smelling fragrance
And birds chirping gleefully
Filling the warm crisp air
With joy and zest every minute
Making a pompus entry as it always is
This is what SPRING is to me
Random Tots....Munchin Muffins
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1. A plane just flew past...how I wish I can fly and see things in different view
2. I miss my favourite blueberry muffin from The Coffeebean & Tea Leaf
3. Dark Cherry Mocha Frap not to my liking..it tastes awful, like cough syrup...awww
4. Tons of X'mas cards yet to be written
5. Blew my budget for retail therapy for the month of Nov08
6. Had craving for KFC but holding it back because it is FATTENING!!
7. My co-workers are staring at me now...shoo-ing me to get ready for our BOOSTER LUNCH!!
It is lunch time now....bye peeps!
魔杰座 - Capricorn
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Moi
魔杰座 has a significant meaning to me...not only because I am born under this star sign (note: the middle character should be 羯 instead) but also because this is the title of of Jay's new album and and and...he is also born under the same sign! In fact, Jay is just a day older than me...wwaahhhh...such affinity. Finally, I got my hands on the new album, gotten a friend to help me 预购, the bundle came with the CD/DVD, a very nice metal casing, a set of poker cards and rubik's cube (a mechanical puzzle), with jay's printed on it.
My favourite song in this album is <<稻香>> and here's the lyrics:
對這個世界如果你有太多的抱怨
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的
追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色 先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機 現在終於飛回我手裡
所謂的那快樂 赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了 誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午後吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
My favourite song in this album is <<稻香>> and here's the lyrics:
跌倒了就不敢繼續往前走
為什麼人要這麼的脆弱 墮落
請你打開電視看看
多少人為生命在努力勇敢的走下去
我們是不是該知足
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
不要這麼容易就想放棄 就像我說的
追不到的夢想 換個夢不就得了
為自己的人生鮮艷上色 先把愛塗上喜歡的顏色
笑一個吧 功成名就不是目的
讓自己快樂快樂這才叫做意義
童年的紙飛機 現在終於飛回我手裡
所謂的那快樂 赤腳在田裡追蜻蜓追到累了
偷摘水果被蜜蜂給叮到怕了 誰在偷笑呢
我靠著稻草人吹著風唱著歌睡著了
哦 哦 午後吉它在蟲鳴中更清脆
哦 哦 陽光灑在路上就不怕心碎
珍惜一切 就算沒有擁有
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
還記得你說家是唯一的城堡 隨著稻香河流繼續奔跑
微微笑 小時候的夢我知道
不要哭讓螢火蟲帶著你逃跑 鄉間的歌謠永遠的依靠
回家吧 回到最初的美好
We Are All The Same...Ultimately We Are GOD's Creation
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Moi
The rain was pouring horredously like millions and millions of icicles darting to pierce the ground, only to melt into the charcoal-coloured earth the moment it makes contact. I was driving...in fact crawling due to the low visibility. But then it didn't blurred my vision of a figure sitting at the back of the lorry in front of me, totally drenched, and perhaps shivering as the rain continued its attack on his body endlessly. He looked foreign, perhaps from PRC and I thought he was somewhat embarrassed, with only a tattered and torn umbrella as his only defence (what a useless defence) against the harsh rainfall.
I was thinking aloud, how poor he looked and how inconsiderate the driver was. I stepped on the accelerator a little harder, wanted to catch up with the lorry. On the front, besides the driver, was another adult with a kid in the middle. The poor man could have been given a seat in front, while the kid could most probably be seated on the lap on the other adult and viola, no one will get wet. That poor man could have contracted pnuemonia in such a violent weather. But does anyone cares?
As much as I might dislike the idea of seeing foreign workers loitering at my void deck, drinking the night away but apart from that, I can't help but feeling compassionate towards them. Having to leave their hometowns, to leave behind their families and loved ones, to leave behind all that familiarity, and into a land so foreign and perhaps even strange to some, to work hard for their futures so that they may have better lives.
I feel so blessed that I am not in any of this situation and especially in these diffult times, with the dark blooming financial crisis and what-not, I just prayed that their employers could just be a little more considerate and also to treat them like fellow-beings. We are all GOD's creations and nobody should be treated any lesser nor any superior than the other.
I was thinking aloud, how poor he looked and how inconsiderate the driver was. I stepped on the accelerator a little harder, wanted to catch up with the lorry. On the front, besides the driver, was another adult with a kid in the middle. The poor man could have been given a seat in front, while the kid could most probably be seated on the lap on the other adult and viola, no one will get wet. That poor man could have contracted pnuemonia in such a violent weather. But does anyone cares?
As much as I might dislike the idea of seeing foreign workers loitering at my void deck, drinking the night away but apart from that, I can't help but feeling compassionate towards them. Having to leave their hometowns, to leave behind their families and loved ones, to leave behind all that familiarity, and into a land so foreign and perhaps even strange to some, to work hard for their futures so that they may have better lives.
I feel so blessed that I am not in any of this situation and especially in these diffult times, with the dark blooming financial crisis and what-not, I just prayed that their employers could just be a little more considerate and also to treat them like fellow-beings. We are all GOD's creations and nobody should be treated any lesser nor any superior than the other.
Feeling lost and the loss..
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Moi
I never failed to watch the HK serial that will broadcast 5 episodes in one shot on the cable tv. However, today's episode struck a chord with me. It began with Sixi confiding in Gao Qing about her past. She said something that I felt deeply the same way...we can get used to the feeling of a lost love, get used to the feeling of losing a friend, get used to the feeling of missing a favourite show, get used to the feeling of misplacing a most precious belonging but we can never never ever get used to the feeling of losing a loved one so dear to our heart. Even till now, I am missing my dad every single day.
I can't help but feeling and wondering where he is now...
I can't help but feeling and wondering where he is now...
@ Wee Hours
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Moi
The time on my lappy says 0128hrs, usually by this time, I would had hit the sack but because I had some unfinished work, hence stay up late to try to clear some stuff..so that my weekends would not be so miserable...the upcoming week is going to be quite hectic with lots of reports deadline, a presentation and many many many scheduled work yet to be accomplished. But despite being piled up with tons of work, another part of me is actually feeling quite blessed. That is because, I am someone who needs to work, to be given responsiblities, to find my self-worth.
Having worked here for 6mths, I am enjoying my work, the environment and of course my crazy-fun loving-voracious appetite femme fatale co-workers. They do drive me crazy...every now and then with their antics. The silliest being if any one of us is seen wearing a new top/ bottom/ bag/ spectacles/ shoes and what-not, each of us can give the "victim" 3 little taps. Many a times, the "victim" will try to digress or find excuses or pretend it isn't any new item in the wardrobe. Unfortuately, we have quite a different understanding when it comes to the word "new". "New" in this case, means anything that we had never wore to office before albeit wearing it umpteen times in our whole life!! Totally absurd..but yet at the same time...makes us all so dreadful about flaunting that new item we bought at our last shopping trip. Nevertheless, it brought us all giggling non-stop for at least a min when it does happened.
Now, I had to be careful what I wear to work because I can never escape their eagle eyes and claws!!
Having worked here for 6mths, I am enjoying my work, the environment and of course my crazy-fun loving-voracious appetite femme fatale co-workers. They do drive me crazy...every now and then with their antics. The silliest being if any one of us is seen wearing a new top/ bottom/ bag/ spectacles/ shoes and what-not, each of us can give the "victim" 3 little taps. Many a times, the "victim" will try to digress or find excuses or pretend it isn't any new item in the wardrobe. Unfortuately, we have quite a different understanding when it comes to the word "new". "New" in this case, means anything that we had never wore to office before albeit wearing it umpteen times in our whole life!! Totally absurd..but yet at the same time...makes us all so dreadful about flaunting that new item we bought at our last shopping trip. Nevertheless, it brought us all giggling non-stop for at least a min when it does happened.
Now, I had to be careful what I wear to work because I can never escape their eagle eyes and claws!!
Babies To Come.....And Gatherings...
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Moi
Ever since the government announces the new baby bonus package, there seems alot more preggy mummies on the move. Joining the queues are some of my friends...in fact, 3 of them...whom will be becoming mummies and daddy over the span from Oct08 - Jan09. I am feeling happy and at the same time, excited too...because I love babies and is looking forward to play with the little ones.
First to come is baby Patrick Jr (the name is not finalised yet but since he will be a baby boy so adopt this name for the time being). Met up with JP and Patrick for dinner and oh my, JP's tummy is quite big now...approaching the last month of the 3rd trimester. P. Jr is scheduled to pop his head and sees the world on 21 Oct 08. He is a healthy and active baby who is estimated to weigh an approximated weight of 3kg on his arrival. P. Jr will be the youngest and newest member to join our yearly gathering come CNY next year...and also the only prince...since the Edmund and Verlisa had 3 little princesses to date (they are trying for a 4th child soon).
Time just passes so fast...I still remembered vividly the day I first met JP. She wasn't even Pat's girlfriend back then but just a uni friend who joined us for outings. And slowly, over time and after much teasing, they got together. Saw them through their courtship days...preparation for wedding and now...to become mummy and daddy for their very first time. So it's kinda of like we (me & hubby) are involved in a way in their lives...am really really happy for them.
We also met up with Marble (nickname) and Lisa, finally because it was hard to meet up with them. They just ROM and is looking for a flat to move in together. Happy for Lisa who got her PR and may they find their own love nest soon. Rarely had the chance to meet everyone up nowadays due to the clashing schedules...but it is nice to meet up once in a while with whoever can make it....over coffee and little snacks...age is catching up and with the current situation (pregnant mummy and what-nots), we have to avoid adrenaline pumping and loud defeaning music locations...must be child-friendly etc...keke...sooner or later we will end up "la kopi" at kpt.
First to come is baby Patrick Jr (the name is not finalised yet but since he will be a baby boy so adopt this name for the time being). Met up with JP and Patrick for dinner and oh my, JP's tummy is quite big now...approaching the last month of the 3rd trimester. P. Jr is scheduled to pop his head and sees the world on 21 Oct 08. He is a healthy and active baby who is estimated to weigh an approximated weight of 3kg on his arrival. P. Jr will be the youngest and newest member to join our yearly gathering come CNY next year...and also the only prince...since the Edmund and Verlisa had 3 little princesses to date (they are trying for a 4th child soon).
Time just passes so fast...I still remembered vividly the day I first met JP. She wasn't even Pat's girlfriend back then but just a uni friend who joined us for outings. And slowly, over time and after much teasing, they got together. Saw them through their courtship days...preparation for wedding and now...to become mummy and daddy for their very first time. So it's kinda of like we (me & hubby) are involved in a way in their lives...am really really happy for them.
We also met up with Marble (nickname) and Lisa, finally because it was hard to meet up with them. They just ROM and is looking for a flat to move in together. Happy for Lisa who got her PR and may they find their own love nest soon. Rarely had the chance to meet everyone up nowadays due to the clashing schedules...but it is nice to meet up once in a while with whoever can make it....over coffee and little snacks...age is catching up and with the current situation (pregnant mummy and what-nots), we have to avoid adrenaline pumping and loud defeaning music locations...must be child-friendly etc...keke...sooner or later we will end up "la kopi" at kpt.
Goodbye Moffiz & Mozzie
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Moi
I remember the day I took you home
You brought so much sunshine and joy into my life
You were so bubbly and cute
And always dressed in bright orange suits
Never once did you failed
To bring me to my smiles
With your little dancing moves
And your quirky little steps
Farewell my little ones
You'll always be my chum chum
You brought so much sunshine and joy into my life
You were so bubbly and cute
And always dressed in bright orange suits
Never once did you failed
To bring me to my smiles
With your little dancing moves
And your quirky little steps
Farewell my little ones
You'll always be my chum chum
<一个像夏天一个像秋天> 范纬琪
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Moi
第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外音之我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天
你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外音之我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密
如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句
如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你
好怀念...
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Moi
好想回到从前, 那些无忧无虑的日子
好比在溜冰上, 无拘无束的旋转
让一阵阵的微风, 轻轻的在我脸颊上吹着
仿佛叙说着那些快乐的时光
你是否也听见了吗? 是否也同感深受?
好比在溜冰上, 无拘无束的旋转
让一阵阵的微风, 轻轻的在我脸颊上吹着
仿佛叙说着那些快乐的时光
你是否也听见了吗? 是否也同感深受?
因为..
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"...因为想一个人而寂寞, 因为爱一个人而温柔, 因为有一个梦而执着, 因为等一个人而折磨, 因为想一个人而解脱, 因为爱一个人而宽容, 因为有一个梦而放纵, 因为等一个人而漂泊..."
<因为>
-范玮琪-
<因为>
-范玮琪-
Disoriented....Restless...
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Feel disoriented and extremely restless. Though nothing major happened, but the little issues I am facing right now, when all added up, become one big issue. Haven't been keeping my temper in check...and yes, some of you are stepping on my toes. Agggggrrrrrrrrr...
Throughout the years, I learnt alot about myself. Life hasn't been as smooth-sailing and honey-sweet as before (as in during childhood and even adolescent years)...and there were times when I felt like giving up but yet on the other hand, 我不干心就这样放弃. It is not that I like to make things difficult for myself, but being persistent by nature and also obstinate, I refused to give in just like that. Sometimes, I do admit I am quite hard on myself...and always bring myself down...which brings my self-esteem to the lowest point.
Don't aggravate me further...for you who is trying to malign me so as to look good yourself...I shan't explain much...清者自清...not all will do to your bidding...and the world doesn't only evolved around you. But I am disappointed, totally disappointed...
Throughout the years, I learnt alot about myself. Life hasn't been as smooth-sailing and honey-sweet as before (as in during childhood and even adolescent years)...and there were times when I felt like giving up but yet on the other hand, 我不干心就这样放弃. It is not that I like to make things difficult for myself, but being persistent by nature and also obstinate, I refused to give in just like that. Sometimes, I do admit I am quite hard on myself...and always bring myself down...which brings my self-esteem to the lowest point.
Don't aggravate me further...for you who is trying to malign me so as to look good yourself...I shan't explain much...清者自清...not all will do to your bidding...and the world doesn't only evolved around you. But I am disappointed, totally disappointed...
Digress...digress
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Moi
Do you reminiscence of the past, of olden times? Or when you passed by places/ architectures that brings back past memories? This can only signify one simple thing: Aging. I was merely passing my comment that only people who are in the process of aging (we all are...esp those approaching the 30s) will always come up with phrases like..."In the past, I used to...". Sounds demoralising? HB replied saying youngsters don't have that much memories yet for them to ponder over their past.
I think we all looked back every now and then, realising how things and people were much simpler, and how much we had really enjoyed back then. But yet, do we want to live in a society that is standstill in the past while the rest of the world is already evolving into the millennium? We've come so far together as a country and I can't deny the fact that technology does ease us in many ways but yet turned us coldly in others.
Sometimes we are so dependent on these state-of-the-art technology that everyone seemed lacking of human touch and warmth. I guess we can never have the best of both worlds...we can only make the best out of it.
I think we all looked back every now and then, realising how things and people were much simpler, and how much we had really enjoyed back then. But yet, do we want to live in a society that is standstill in the past while the rest of the world is already evolving into the millennium? We've come so far together as a country and I can't deny the fact that technology does ease us in many ways but yet turned us coldly in others.
Sometimes we are so dependent on these state-of-the-art technology that everyone seemed lacking of human touch and warmth. I guess we can never have the best of both worlds...we can only make the best out of it.
Some Updates
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Wanna update something about myself but realised nothing worth to update about...such irony. But hor...since I already started this post, I might as well update something about myself...wahahaha...nothing much...nothing spectacular...nothing...just something:
1. brought mum and ah boy to the RSAF Open House together with HB
2. rebonded my hair before it gets really messy, about to turn into lion mane
3. Watched WALL-E and fell asleep..it was a cute show albeit no dialogue
4. went for a movie at GOLD CLASS...cosy armchair but I doubt there'll be a 2nd time, the ticket is exorbitant!!! (ours given FOC by a friend-cum-insurance agent)
5. went mooncake shopping over the wkend, this year purchase was much lesser than last year
6. Managed to "nua" at home on sun afternoon on my sofa, munching on chips, sipping Ribena and be a couch potato
1. brought mum and ah boy to the RSAF Open House together with HB
2. rebonded my hair before it gets really messy, about to turn into lion mane
3. Watched WALL-E and fell asleep..it was a cute show albeit no dialogue
4. went for a movie at GOLD CLASS...cosy armchair but I doubt there'll be a 2nd time, the ticket is exorbitant!!! (ours given FOC by a friend-cum-insurance agent)
5. went mooncake shopping over the wkend, this year purchase was much lesser than last year
6. Managed to "nua" at home on sun afternoon on my sofa, munching on chips, sipping Ribena and be a couch potato
I Am Back!
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Moi
I am back from my Taiwan trip, in fact, I am back for almost 10 days...but yet I have yet to get back to the momentum to work, still basking in holidays mood. Heehee...already dreaming of my next vacation.
I had my many 1st time in Taipei, Taiwan.
1. my 1st time doing so much walking, really overworked my feet..everyday ended up feeling sore with blisters
2. my 1st time drinking so much water in a day. i know we had to have our daily intake of water...but i am a camel, i don't have to drink much back here in our sunny island
3. my 1st time taking so much public transports. the roads were winding and bus was jerky the whole time, i had to hold on dearly to the pole in case i flew off (i miss my little blackie so much back then)
4. my 1st time speaking in full mandarin (singaporean always converse in rojak language)...think my mandarin improved quite a bit
But...albeit the sore legs and sticky feeling (the sun is shinning at its full force in Taiwan), it was a fun trip. My impression of Taipei, it seemed like time had decided to stop in the 60s one second, but fast forward into the millenium the next. What I meant was...you notice a row of old shophouses...then out of nowhere, a skyscraper. That's how Taipei is. And the people? Very friendly. I remembered we got kinda of lost and we approached this young man who offered to walk us to the night market. The service? Having compared with our very own, I guess we still had much to learn from our chinese counterparts. They have so much pride in their service..I'll be more than glad to pay for the 10% service charge.
It was nevertheless, a food paradise for food lovers, a shopping paradise for shopping fanatics...and definitely a haven for girls alike. There seemed endless of things to buy..only if you are patient enough to dig through bags and bags of merchandise and through endless streets of shops.
I will write in more detail about each of the places that I set foot upon...and hopefully this will inspire you to visit Taiwan.
I had my many 1st time in Taipei, Taiwan.
1. my 1st time doing so much walking, really overworked my feet..everyday ended up feeling sore with blisters
2. my 1st time drinking so much water in a day. i know we had to have our daily intake of water...but i am a camel, i don't have to drink much back here in our sunny island
3. my 1st time taking so much public transports. the roads were winding and bus was jerky the whole time, i had to hold on dearly to the pole in case i flew off (i miss my little blackie so much back then)
4. my 1st time speaking in full mandarin (singaporean always converse in rojak language)...think my mandarin improved quite a bit
But...albeit the sore legs and sticky feeling (the sun is shinning at its full force in Taiwan), it was a fun trip. My impression of Taipei, it seemed like time had decided to stop in the 60s one second, but fast forward into the millenium the next. What I meant was...you notice a row of old shophouses...then out of nowhere, a skyscraper. That's how Taipei is. And the people? Very friendly. I remembered we got kinda of lost and we approached this young man who offered to walk us to the night market. The service? Having compared with our very own, I guess we still had much to learn from our chinese counterparts. They have so much pride in their service..I'll be more than glad to pay for the 10% service charge.
It was nevertheless, a food paradise for food lovers, a shopping paradise for shopping fanatics...and definitely a haven for girls alike. There seemed endless of things to buy..only if you are patient enough to dig through bags and bags of merchandise and through endless streets of shops.
I will write in more detail about each of the places that I set foot upon...and hopefully this will inspire you to visit Taiwan.
New CHIPS on the block
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Moi
Oh my gosh, I have grown, at an exponential rate, and sadly, rather horizontally despite the fact that I am way beyond my puberty age. But...but...but nevertheless, I still want to share good stuff with you people outta. Hope I am not too late in introducing a new snack (new to me at least)...and that is *drum roll*......TWISTIES CHIPSTER: HOT 'N' SPICY!! Ta-da!
Light, crunchy and crispy with a tinge of spicyness, this is just the right snack to snuggle up with some good ol' friends or even your loved ones on the couch while vegging out in front of the tv. I managed to coax my colleagues to open up the chips for our self-declared tea-break and we....finished the whole bag of chips in mere minutes!! Yummy....(licking the leftover crumbs off my lips)...and now I got the urge to buy a packet and store it at home. This is bad...this will ruin and sabotage my plans to slim down before my trip to Taiwan and upcoming friend's wedding. Diet will come after the chips indulgence...haha.
Light, crunchy and crispy with a tinge of spicyness, this is just the right snack to snuggle up with some good ol' friends or even your loved ones on the couch while vegging out in front of the tv. I managed to coax my colleagues to open up the chips for our self-declared tea-break and we....finished the whole bag of chips in mere minutes!! Yummy....(licking the leftover crumbs off my lips)...and now I got the urge to buy a packet and store it at home. This is bad...this will ruin and sabotage my plans to slim down before my trip to Taiwan and upcoming friend's wedding. Diet will come after the chips indulgence...haha.
Tired...Stress....
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Moi
Haven't been blogging these days...felt tired everyday. Work is getting more hectic, loads of quotes/ reports and am now scratching my head for the upcoming presentation on next Thurs...stress stress stress....I can't meet my numbers and this is just the tip of the iceberg...I need a break badly...looking forward to my Taiwan trip...yippee!!
EXO.FORCE - 龍牙
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Moi
Went shopping yesterday for birthday gifts, one for my husband's niece's 1 year-old birthday and the other for my very own 小宝贝, aka Linus. He is my younger nephew and will be having his 4th birthday coming end of June. Bought him a HOT WHEELS set, which came with 1 HOT WHEEL car that can perform all the stunts when you connect all the bridges/ tracks etc.
Being a "kid" myself, I went over to the Lego section. Had always been fascinated by the simplicity of the building blocks which results in unlimited transformations with one's own creativity. I was overwhelmed (and excited) by the different series of Lego that the store offers. Spoilt for choice, but ultimately the EXO.FORCE caught my attention. It is my very FIRST model, code 7701, warrior Takeshi 龍牙. More to come...
Being a "kid" myself, I went over to the Lego section. Had always been fascinated by the simplicity of the building blocks which results in unlimited transformations with one's own creativity. I was overwhelmed (and excited) by the different series of Lego that the store offers. Spoilt for choice, but ultimately the EXO.FORCE caught my attention. It is my very FIRST model, code 7701, warrior Takeshi 龍牙. More to come...
Under The Weather
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Moi
Am feeling under the weather for the past 2 days, cause: down with swollen eye. Really uncomfortable and irritating. As I tried to keep my eye open (it was so swollen and red, I can hardly lift my lid up), it causes more strain and pain so in the end I gave up.
Having swollen eye is one of the most dreadful thing that could have ever happened to me. Because, I will not be able to sleep well at night. Kept tossing and turning, and trying to open my "defunct" eye every now and then, for fear that it might get so swell up that I wasn't gonna open the eye for the rest of my life. Silly me, isn't it? Worry for nothing...
My eye is getting better now, at least no more pain and the swelling is subsiding...I can see better and more clearly now...this proves by the fact that I am able to blog now. Yippee!!
Having swollen eye is one of the most dreadful thing that could have ever happened to me. Because, I will not be able to sleep well at night. Kept tossing and turning, and trying to open my "defunct" eye every now and then, for fear that it might get so swell up that I wasn't gonna open the eye for the rest of my life. Silly me, isn't it? Worry for nothing...
My eye is getting better now, at least no more pain and the swelling is subsiding...I can see better and more clearly now...this proves by the fact that I am able to blog now. Yippee!!
我一直都在
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Moi
听着这首歌的旋率, 再仔细的看了歌词,感触特别多. 你是否也在身后等待着这一个人...
遥望着你背影
有孤单太苍白
我多么想陪着你
走过人山人海
当天空变灰白
你的忧伤澎湃
我多么想走进你
紧锁的心海
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天回过头看我
我的笑送给你希望你快乐
你的难过都给我
关于你的一切我都
好好收藏着
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天能感觉到我
就算我在你世界
渺小像一颗尘埃
我也会给你我所有的光和热
我鼓起勇气呐喊
你要听得见
我不许你再孤单
要你拥抱我给的温暖
遥望着你背影
有孤单太苍白
我多么想陪着你
走过人山人海
当天空变灰白
你的忧伤澎湃
我多么想走进你
紧锁的心海
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天回过头看我
我的笑送给你希望你快乐
你的难过都给我
关于你的一切我都
好好收藏着
我一直都在你身后等待
等你有一天能感觉到我
就算我在你世界
渺小像一颗尘埃
我也会给你我所有的光和热
我鼓起勇气呐喊
你要听得见
我不许你再孤单
要你拥抱我给的温暖
Shackled, Are We Not?
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Moi
Often, we are influenced by our moods and emotions. And this in turn shackled our thoughts and dominates the way we look at things around us. Try walking down the same stretch of pathway on two separate ocassions whereby there is stark contrast in your moods. You'll realise even the singing birds perching on the branches sounds like angels singing from heaven on a good day, and yet it maybe irksome on a really really bad day.
Heehee...I am in a pretty good mood today so I guess I'll enjoy the chirping and singing of the little birdies on my way out later...
Heehee...I am in a pretty good mood today so I guess I'll enjoy the chirping and singing of the little birdies on my way out later...
My Little Black Book
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Oh no, I spent $$ again...went to Popular to get a pen but end up...getting my first little black book and dozen of other colourful pens...another indulgence of my writing materials...am going to start my very first scrap book =)
Stickers
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These are my latest addition to my stickers collection. My affection for my collection is beyond words, maybe due to my limited vocabulary, I am unable to find a word that can aptly describe my endearment to these little sticky pads. The ones in the picture below are actually for the PC peripherals...keyboard!! But I just can't bear to remove them and use them...hence I kept every single one of them in a little box that I bought from IKEA. And every now and then, I would just take them all out and admire them...*grin sheepishly*. To let you in a little secret, sometimes I will buy two of the same kind, one for usage and the other for keeps!!
F.A.I.T.H - Hebrew 11
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Moi
Often, we lived and do things by our faith and beliefs in people, things, tenets...and we made certain decisions based on our level of faith and beliefs. Below phrases are taken from my church's bulletin and I find it very encouraging, so to share with you all...
Keep up the song of faith, however dark the night;
And as you praise, the Lord will work to change your faith to sight!
Keep up the song of faith, and let your heart be strong,
For GOD delights when faith can praise through dark the night and long.
Keep up the song of faith, the foe will hear and flee;
Oh, let not the Satan hush your song - for praise is victory!
Keep up the song of faith, the dawn will break ere long,
And we shall go to meet the Lord and join the endless Song!
Keep up the song of faith, however dark the night;
And as you praise, the Lord will work to change your faith to sight!
Keep up the song of faith, and let your heart be strong,
For GOD delights when faith can praise through dark the night and long.
Keep up the song of faith, the foe will hear and flee;
Oh, let not the Satan hush your song - for praise is victory!
Keep up the song of faith, the dawn will break ere long,
And we shall go to meet the Lord and join the endless Song!
ART BOX
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Oohhhh, how I love nice little writing materials with intricate yet colourful designs. I'll get girlish, excited and obsessed. Something inside me just wanna scream out loud for joy!! ART BOX has all sorts of writing materials...and they are all sooooooooooooooooo adorable that I had a difficult time choosing which to bring home and finally settled for 4. Some of the stuff are a little tad too expensive and all imported from Korea. I could just spent at least an hour in this little shop, browsing through and through the materials. How I wish I could just bring everything home but....it''ll burnt a BIG hole in my pocket. Just to share with you....
安靜
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Moi
My all-time fav. Jay Chou's song
只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的
我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開
你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你
只剩下鋼琴陪我談了一天
睡著的大提琴
安靜的舊舊的
我想你已表現的非常明白
我懂我也知道
你沒有捨不得
你說你也會難過我不相信
牽著你陪著 我也只是曾經
希望他是真的比我還要愛你
我才會逼自己離開
你要我說多難堪
我根本不想分開
為什麼還要我用微笑來帶過
我沒有這種天份
包容你也接受他
不用擔心的太多
我會一直好好過
你已經遠遠離開
我也會慢慢走開
為什麼我連分開都遷就著你
我真的沒有天份
安靜的沒這麼快
我會學著放棄你
是因為我太愛你
Started....Ended....Abruptly
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Moi
It ended as abruptly as it started. It began with burning passion and yet the burning ceases without knowingly.
Cold & Painful
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Moi
There are many things which are beyond my understanding. There are many questions which I hope to find answers for.
The cause and effect of actions, the outcome of events, the reason behind the indifferences…They say the human brain is the most complex entity but I think the human heart supersede all.
And now, I feel like as if someone had pierced through my heart with a sharp icicle, right through all the veins and arteries…. It is bleeding profusely but the blood is warm, yet I feel the chill. The pain comes not from the bleeding but the cold biting stab. But soon, I will feel nothing but numbness...
The cause and effect of actions, the outcome of events, the reason behind the indifferences…They say the human brain is the most complex entity but I think the human heart supersede all.
And now, I feel like as if someone had pierced through my heart with a sharp icicle, right through all the veins and arteries…. It is bleeding profusely but the blood is warm, yet I feel the chill. The pain comes not from the bleeding but the cold biting stab. But soon, I will feel nothing but numbness...
My Adoration: Bolso.Beutel.Bags
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Moi
I am but a true blue BAG lover. My adoration for BAGs is traversely above human understanding, particularly to the male counterparts whom probably dedicated 365days (if not more) to one pathetic sac. A BAG isn't just some old hay sack where you dumped all your personal belongings. And for a record, you can never envisage what you are about to discover in a woman's carryall. in short, a BAG is
i. an assortment of accessories
ii. a fashion statement
iii. an identity
In fact, there is a myriad selections of them. tote, duffel, satchel, haversack, backpack, clutch, evening purses, sling bags, pouch...just to name a few. There is always that one BAG for each occasion and as a matching adjunct for your outfit.
BAG is but a part of many paraphernalia in a woman's wardrobe.
i. an assortment of accessories
ii. a fashion statement
iii. an identity
In fact, there is a myriad selections of them. tote, duffel, satchel, haversack, backpack, clutch, evening purses, sling bags, pouch...just to name a few. There is always that one BAG for each occasion and as a matching adjunct for your outfit.
BAG is but a part of many paraphernalia in a woman's wardrobe.
Capricorn THAT'S ME!!
C'est Tout from
Moi
Few people are as practical and ambitious as Capricorn. Yours is the tenth sign, an earthy element, which makes you down to earth and matter-of-fact. Caution is your second name and this is due to Saturn, your ruling planet. You are sometimes shy and lack self confidence and self-esteem.
I've never met a Capricorn who was afraid of hard work in order which to achieve what they want in life. You are ambitious and go for your dreams and usually end up successful. You like money but not if it involves risk. You prefer to know exactly where your dollars and cents are going. You prefer traditional types of savings.
Others do not generally see you as too enthusiastic but when people get to know you, you do have a side to your nature which is humorous and affectionate. You like to work quietly and effectively without creating too much bother or attention to yourself.
You are emotionally cool so you don't warm to people that easily until you get to know them. Once you get closer you start to feel comfortable with them. Suspicion is one of the chief traits of Capricorn and when you meet people for the first time it is your way of displaying maturity by not jumping the gun. You like to understand what another person is really about.
You are a big thinker even though you work methodically and practically by taking your time to achieve what you set out to do. You never like airy, fairy concepts and only work on ideas which will vouch safe your financial and material security in the future. You are not a clock watcher when you work because you believe in doing a job right the first time round. You also hate wasting time. You are frugal, resourceful and hard working. Commitment is natural to you which is why, as I said earlier, you are likely to be successful in anything you attempt.
Not all Capricorns are supported in their lives so you learnt from an early age how to be self sufficient and to make it alone. You know exactly how to achieve your ambitions by yourself. Your primary philosophy is that self sufficiency is strength so you do not like to ask others to carry you. This also has a basis in the fact that you like to take full credit for what you achieve.
"Expect the worst but hope for the best" is a saying that I have often heard many Capricorns repeat. Basically you are very level-headed and don't expect things to happen overnight. People admire the way you work because you are motivated by your ambitions but also like to perfect your work and do it properly. You can always be relied upon to help others and not cut corners.
A traditional life style appeals to you because you like things in their place and need to be in control. Because of this you are not always the most exciting person to be around but you are extremely loyal and will never let anyone down when you give them your word. It does not seem to bother you that others see you as less adventurous. The name of the game to you is living life on your own terms rather than compromising.
Sometimes others make the mistake of thinking you are elitist. They get the sense you are looking down on them but this is not so because you are actually a very generous person with both your money and your time and if the cause is a worthy one there are fewer who are as generous as you.
Due to your cautious and meticulous mind you are a wonderful judge of character and can easily see through the BS. You are aware of the consequences of partnership both commercially and personally and are absolutely committed to your word.
If others get to know you they will understand that you are a very trustworthy, dependent, punctual individual that you can always be counted on to fulfil their needs and help them if the occasion arises.
In money matters you are extremely hard to deal with and are sometimes seen as being overly materialistic. Although you do drive a hard bargain your integrity always steers your course in life.
You have an incredible capacity to withstand the blows of life and even if times get tough your resilience and dedication is second to none. You gain greater strength than others from whatever misfortune occurs. You are like the steel under the blacksmith's hammer, getting stronger with every blow!
Your token is the Goat which shows just how capable you are of reaching the heights of any mountain. Your success is likely to occur later in life but when it does, you share what you have with others. You like measuring your success through what you have.
You expect people to be just as trustworthy as yourself. If you accept a responsibility you do so with full commitment. You always demand the same level of integrity from anyone you deal with both in the work place and at home.
You are sure to scale the heights of success and due to your keen focus, discipline and concentration your ruling planet Saturn insures a great deal of success, power and happiness. Capricorn stands for courage and achievement after a long and tedious effort.
I've never met a Capricorn who was afraid of hard work in order which to achieve what they want in life. You are ambitious and go for your dreams and usually end up successful. You like money but not if it involves risk. You prefer to know exactly where your dollars and cents are going. You prefer traditional types of savings.
Others do not generally see you as too enthusiastic but when people get to know you, you do have a side to your nature which is humorous and affectionate. You like to work quietly and effectively without creating too much bother or attention to yourself.
You are emotionally cool so you don't warm to people that easily until you get to know them. Once you get closer you start to feel comfortable with them. Suspicion is one of the chief traits of Capricorn and when you meet people for the first time it is your way of displaying maturity by not jumping the gun. You like to understand what another person is really about.
You are a big thinker even though you work methodically and practically by taking your time to achieve what you set out to do. You never like airy, fairy concepts and only work on ideas which will vouch safe your financial and material security in the future. You are not a clock watcher when you work because you believe in doing a job right the first time round. You also hate wasting time. You are frugal, resourceful and hard working. Commitment is natural to you which is why, as I said earlier, you are likely to be successful in anything you attempt.
Not all Capricorns are supported in their lives so you learnt from an early age how to be self sufficient and to make it alone. You know exactly how to achieve your ambitions by yourself. Your primary philosophy is that self sufficiency is strength so you do not like to ask others to carry you. This also has a basis in the fact that you like to take full credit for what you achieve.
"Expect the worst but hope for the best" is a saying that I have often heard many Capricorns repeat. Basically you are very level-headed and don't expect things to happen overnight. People admire the way you work because you are motivated by your ambitions but also like to perfect your work and do it properly. You can always be relied upon to help others and not cut corners.
A traditional life style appeals to you because you like things in their place and need to be in control. Because of this you are not always the most exciting person to be around but you are extremely loyal and will never let anyone down when you give them your word. It does not seem to bother you that others see you as less adventurous. The name of the game to you is living life on your own terms rather than compromising.
Sometimes others make the mistake of thinking you are elitist. They get the sense you are looking down on them but this is not so because you are actually a very generous person with both your money and your time and if the cause is a worthy one there are fewer who are as generous as you.
Due to your cautious and meticulous mind you are a wonderful judge of character and can easily see through the BS. You are aware of the consequences of partnership both commercially and personally and are absolutely committed to your word.
If others get to know you they will understand that you are a very trustworthy, dependent, punctual individual that you can always be counted on to fulfil their needs and help them if the occasion arises.
In money matters you are extremely hard to deal with and are sometimes seen as being overly materialistic. Although you do drive a hard bargain your integrity always steers your course in life.
You have an incredible capacity to withstand the blows of life and even if times get tough your resilience and dedication is second to none. You gain greater strength than others from whatever misfortune occurs. You are like the steel under the blacksmith's hammer, getting stronger with every blow!
Your token is the Goat which shows just how capable you are of reaching the heights of any mountain. Your success is likely to occur later in life but when it does, you share what you have with others. You like measuring your success through what you have.
You expect people to be just as trustworthy as yourself. If you accept a responsibility you do so with full commitment. You always demand the same level of integrity from anyone you deal with both in the work place and at home.
You are sure to scale the heights of success and due to your keen focus, discipline and concentration your ruling planet Saturn insures a great deal of success, power and happiness. Capricorn stands for courage and achievement after a long and tedious effort.
The Eleventh Day of The Fifth Month of the Two Thousand and Eighth Year
C'est Tout from
Moi
Mood: Uncertain
Climate: Cool
Looking at my entry title, yes, I am bored hence the long and lame title =p
I love the luxury of vegging out in front of the tv, lazing on my big, soft cosy bed and blogging all at the same time. What more can you ask for, this is heavenly for me, woooh! It would be purrrrrrrrrfect if I can just had a cuppa aromatic cappucino to hydrate myself but unfortunately, it is not going to happen. Mr Naggy, as the implies, will start nagging at me and then followed by a prep talk about an email that he read about ants crawling in the brain and attacking it. I think even without the ants, his brain is being attacked...heehee, he is mugging for his exams and so for now, he is too busy to even nag at me. Great!!! Peace!! *grins*
The Apprentice show is now on...but I am not really watching it, I on the TV for the sake of the sounds that it is transmitting through the speakers...am flipping through the channels, nothing interesting though...aggggrrr bored.
My Co-workers...
C'est Tout from
Moi
In my previous entry, I was being skeptical about joining my current company. Now I am thankful that I took up the job not just because of the monetary gains but is greatly blessed to have such friendly colleagues/ boss and also a conducive working environment. After so many months of search, when all seemed hopeless, GOD opened a door for me.
Days passed and I am into my third week already, things had been by far quite smooth, no major hiccups. Even on Mondays, I don’t feel blue at all, because I know I will enjoy my time in the office with my fun colleagues. With a doubt, of all, I enjoy the morning chat and lunch breaks the most =)
We are multi-national…Singapore, Malaysia, Indonesia, India, Philippines, China….
Su – you’ll nbr see her with repeated clothings for 2wks…& she is half-halal like moi
Jes – most senior employee but not oldest (she’s into her eleventh year), very helpful and patient and tallest of all
Ade – my neighbour…(we used to live in the same blk and never met each other till now), cheerful mama
Ela – the lady alwiz in black and always ready for a laff (we alwiz ask her how cm she wear black everyday, but when she don’t, we will ask her why not)
SH – my junior in poly (but nbr seen her b4), very funny in her own way…being frank and upfront is her trait and is on honeymoon now
Lin – the indo-chinese…her accent and actions just made you smile
Ivy – quiet but strong faith in the Lord
Mei – the youngest of the lot, can eat alot but nbr get fat (envy!!)
Rol – one of the few guys, our IT expert, all the way from Philippines
and many more…
May the Lord bless each and everyone of them, and also bless that the company will pick up soon and earn big big bucks!! (so we can get bonus mah…)
Days passed and I am into my third week already, things had been by far quite smooth, no major hiccups. Even on Mondays, I don’t feel blue at all, because I know I will enjoy my time in the office with my fun colleagues. With a doubt, of all, I enjoy the morning chat and lunch breaks the most =)
We are multi-national…Singapore, Malaysia, Indonesia, India, Philippines, China….
Su – you’ll nbr see her with repeated clothings for 2wks…& she is half-halal like moi
Jes – most senior employee but not oldest (she’s into her eleventh year), very helpful and patient and tallest of all
Ade – my neighbour…(we used to live in the same blk and never met each other till now), cheerful mama
Ela – the lady alwiz in black and always ready for a laff (we alwiz ask her how cm she wear black everyday, but when she don’t, we will ask her why not)
SH – my junior in poly (but nbr seen her b4), very funny in her own way…being frank and upfront is her trait and is on honeymoon now
Lin – the indo-chinese…her accent and actions just made you smile
Ivy – quiet but strong faith in the Lord
Mei – the youngest of the lot, can eat alot but nbr get fat (envy!!)
Rol – one of the few guys, our IT expert, all the way from Philippines
and many more…
May the Lord bless each and everyone of them, and also bless that the company will pick up soon and earn big big bucks!! (so we can get bonus mah…)
My Third Day.....And More To Come
C'est Tout from
Moi
By God's grace (who else is more gracious than our Abba Father above), I have started my new career, hopefully the most rewarding and long-lasting one ever. It may not be the ideal job but since I am in it, I might as well make the best out of it. Today marks my 3rd day...it had been so far so good, keeping all my appendages crossed =)
To be honest, I had my reservations about joining this company as I heard very unpromising and unflattering comments but I prayed about it and went on to take up the job. Though it is still too early to conclude anything, but I believe that things can only get better (since I had already been at my lowest). Besides with my fervent prayings and faith, my GOD will...nope should be already had everything planned out for me. I just had to be patient and listen to what HE wants to me do.
I don't know if age is catching up on me or simply the fact that I had been lazing for too long...I never felt so exhausted in my life. Not only physically but also mentally. Well, I guess my motor not fully warmed up yet, the engine not running at full speed and not performing at it optimum. Out of a sudden, I felt a tinge of nostalgia. Was reminiscing the good old times back in school days. Oh no, I am really getting old because only old people would stop and look back into the past, revisiting the places, reliving the memories. I better catch some sleep to replenish my energy, and in hope that I could "captured" some of my youth back. (in my dreams of course!!)
Good nite!! *yawn*
To be honest, I had my reservations about joining this company as I heard very unpromising and unflattering comments but I prayed about it and went on to take up the job. Though it is still too early to conclude anything, but I believe that things can only get better (since I had already been at my lowest). Besides with my fervent prayings and faith, my GOD will...nope should be already had everything planned out for me. I just had to be patient and listen to what HE wants to me do.
I don't know if age is catching up on me or simply the fact that I had been lazing for too long...I never felt so exhausted in my life. Not only physically but also mentally. Well, I guess my motor not fully warmed up yet, the engine not running at full speed and not performing at it optimum. Out of a sudden, I felt a tinge of nostalgia. Was reminiscing the good old times back in school days. Oh no, I am really getting old because only old people would stop and look back into the past, revisiting the places, reliving the memories. I better catch some sleep to replenish my energy, and in hope that I could "captured" some of my youth back. (in my dreams of course!!)
Good nite!! *yawn*
The POWER of retail therapy
C'est Tout from
Moi
An uplifting meal, no matter how delectable, can never harvest as much happiness as retail therapy. Flourishing cheeks, scintillating dancing tears, ahhhh....the felicitation sense of an achievement has never been so highly gratified. A source of sustenance, my means of subsistence.
I missed retail therapy but due to unforseen circumstances, this regular activity of mine has been put on hold till further notice. Awwww....
I missed retail therapy but due to unforseen circumstances, this regular activity of mine has been put on hold till further notice. Awwww....
Lazy
C'est Tout from
Moi
It is a fine sunny day out there, such peace and tranquility, on a lazy afternoon. Attempted to watch Becoming Jane, but was too frustrated with the hicupping video streaming that I gave up. Quite disconcerted about the increase of the movie tix, who goes into effect from today onwards. Oh well, Becoming Jane is a biography of Jane Austen, who happens to be one of my favourite writers. Classic literature. Pride and Prejudice tops the list of her works for me. Though read it like for a zillion times, each time a different experience.
Cant't wait to start Sense and Sensibility...tata!
Cant't wait to start Sense and Sensibility...tata!
20.03.2008
C'est Tout from
Moi
It has been more than awhile...let see, my last entry was like way back in Feb 2008. Ironically, I am so FREE but yet I ain't spending a single second to feed my blog.
Didn't really have a good start for the year and with the 2nd quarter approaching, let's pray that things will get a little tad better, happier and healthier. Not sick, but being so image conscious (overly at times), I've gained a few kilos since I last had my ideal weight about slightly more than a year ago. Really looking forward (I had to constantly pyscho-ing myself to stay positive), and believe that good things are yet to come. Waiting patiently for GOD to reveal His plans for me, because I don't think I am able to sustain myself any longer.
Anyhow, I can't denied the fact that I had a good long rest though I wished for a more fruitful time spent and must admit that I had wasted many hours idling away. (I could have put them to much better use like contributing back to the society). But something I had realised about myself...I can be quite a procrastinator...dwadled too excessively that it get on my own nerves as well. Such weirdo.
Oh, it is only 1652hrs...what shall I do now? Oh right, get back to my book then...Atonement by Ian McEwan. Ciao.
Didn't really have a good start for the year and with the 2nd quarter approaching, let's pray that things will get a little tad better, happier and healthier. Not sick, but being so image conscious (overly at times), I've gained a few kilos since I last had my ideal weight about slightly more than a year ago. Really looking forward (I had to constantly pyscho-ing myself to stay positive), and believe that good things are yet to come. Waiting patiently for GOD to reveal His plans for me, because I don't think I am able to sustain myself any longer.
Anyhow, I can't denied the fact that I had a good long rest though I wished for a more fruitful time spent and must admit that I had wasted many hours idling away. (I could have put them to much better use like contributing back to the society). But something I had realised about myself...I can be quite a procrastinator...dwadled too excessively that it get on my own nerves as well. Such weirdo.
Oh, it is only 1652hrs...what shall I do now? Oh right, get back to my book then...Atonement by Ian McEwan. Ciao.
Way Back Into Love
C'est Tout from
Moi
Nice catchy tunes with oh-so simple yet lovely lyrics...
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.Oooooh.
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.
I've been living with a shadow overhead,
I've been sleeping with a cloud above my bed,
I've been lonely for so long,
Trapped in the past, I just can't seem to move on!
I've been hiding all my hopes and dreams away,
Just in case I ever need them again someday,
I've been setting aside time,
To clear a little space in the corners of my mind!
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.Oooooh.
I've been watching but the stars refuse to shine,
I've been searching but i just don't see the signs,
I know that it's out there,
There's got to be something for my soul somewhere!
I've been looking for someone to shed some light,
Not somebody just to get me through the night,
I could use some direction,
And I'm open to your suggestions.
All I want to do is find a way back into love.
I can't make it through without a way back into love.
And if I open my heart again,
I guess I'm hoping you'll be there for me in the end!
Oooooooh, Ooooooh, Ooooooh.
There are moments when I don't know if it's real
Or if anybody feels the way I feel
I need inspiration
Not just another negotiation
All I want to do is find a way back into love,
I can't make it through without a way back into love,
And if I open my heart to you,
I'm hoping you'll show me what to do,
And if you help me to start again,
You know that I'll be there for you in the end!
Oooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooooh. Oooooooh. Ooooooh Ooooooooh. Ooooooooh.
Don't Quit
C'est Tout from
Moi
Thanks to Wilson, who sent me this poem to encourage me, to continue trudging the path, that seems to be an uphill task...just like every cloud has a silver lining, for there is sunrise (hope) every morning for those who wait.
When things goes wrong, as they sometimes will,
When the road you're trudging seems all uphill,
When the funds are low and the debts are high,
And you want to smile, but you have to sigh,
When care is pressing you down a bit,
Rest, if you must, but don't you quit.
Life is queer with its twists and turns,
As every one of us sometimes learns,
And many a failure turns about,
When he might have won had he stuck it out;
Don't give up though the pace seems slow --
You may succeed with another blow.
Often the goal is nearer than,
It seems to a faint and faltering man,
Often the struggler has given up,
When he might have captured the victor's cup.
Success is failure turned inside out --
The silver tint of the coulds of doubt,
And you never can tell how close you are,
It may be near when it seems so far,
So stick to the fight when you're hardest hit --
It's when things seem worst that you must not quit.
-Unknown Author -
How LOVE tickles me...
C'est Tout from
Moi
How LOVE tickles me...
It starts in my toes, make me crinkle my nose, wherever it goes, i always knows...
It starts in my toes, make me crinkle my nose, wherever it goes, i always knows...
Jazz Vibes - Latino
C'est Tout from
Moi
I have always enjoyed music, it is part of me, something which I cannot imagine to live without. Music is an universal language and at times, it can bring forth a myraid of feelings when you least expected it. There were songs of celebrated joy, notes that bring back memories, nostalgic melodies that reminds you of the old times...hmmm
Am into the genre of Jazz recently, in particular, Latin Jazz. The smooth jazz vibes...easy on the ears, best at any time of the day, especially during a long drive on the highway...or even seated with a cocktail on a beach bistro. Nice.
Am into the genre of Jazz recently, in particular, Latin Jazz. The smooth jazz vibes...easy on the ears, best at any time of the day, especially during a long drive on the highway...or even seated with a cocktail on a beach bistro. Nice.
What Should I Do?
C'est Tout from
Moi
When one doesn't has any expectations
When one doesn't care as much
Then there wouldn't be disappointments or any broken hearts
There were times when I just want to give up
There were times when I just don't want to bother much
But is that what I am, deep down in my very own heart?
I search within myself, thru and thru
I search for an answer but none was true
Perhaps, only You can tell me what I should do
When one doesn't care as much
Then there wouldn't be disappointments or any broken hearts
There were times when I just want to give up
There were times when I just don't want to bother much
But is that what I am, deep down in my very own heart?
I search within myself, thru and thru
I search for an answer but none was true
Perhaps, only You can tell me what I should do
Jay Chou Jie Lun - 19 January 2008
C'est Tout from
Moi
Something to elevate my spirit as I looked forward to Jay Chou's concert this coming Sat evening. Full of anticipation and excitement...wonder what "props" my friend going to buy. We are going to have a helluva wild time...screaming, waving, singing, jumping, clapping....heehee (sheepishly)
Thank You, Constance
C'est Tout from
Moi
Yesterday I received a mail, a personal mail...and not one from the banks or telco (read: bills to pay) . Delightfully, I peeled open the envelope, and inside was a card. On the front, a pic of a cute little girl made up of shapes. It is simple yet it brings along with it a birthday wish. I love it...because I think it is more than a nice gesture to receive a birthday card...furthermore, a hand-made one. Thank you girl, it really brightens up my day.
p/s: I try to see if I can post up a pic of the card.
p/s: I try to see if I can post up a pic of the card.
Aggravating.Exasperating.Infuriating.Vexatious
C'est Tout from
Moi
Have you ever been nice by offering help to someone but in the end felt cheated and exploited? That’s exactly how I felt right now. But thank GOD, my days are numbered which means I will no longer be subjected to slavery and would gain my freedom soon. Happenings these days assured me that I made the right choice. No regrets…definitely NO.
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