Today is officially my first day of work after a 3-week long vacation. Feels kind of weird. Extremely tired. I think I need some time to adjust to working life and to adapt to the new working environment, new job scope and new people. Stress. This can be considered a totally new stuff to me which I have to learn from the scratch, which is perfectly alright to me. But somehow, I just feel stress. Stress about not doing a good job, about not meeting up to expectations (this was recommended by an ex-col who held a reputable position), about not being able to perform as what an engineer should be.
Though I was able to perform my duties with no supervision in my previous company, sub-consciously, you will still feel more at ease knowing that you still have an engineer to "fall" back on. But now, this is totally a different ball game. It's a matter of "CAN DO IT" or "CANNOT DO IT".
Am I giving myself too much and unnecessary pressure? I don't know.
For now, all I can do is to pray for GOD's guidance and wisdom. If you are willingly, do pray for me as well. Arigato.