Blues Monday Blues

I feel extremely lousy this morning, (I mentioned morning instead of day because I hope it get better as the day proceeds), very uneasy and queasy. Feelings quite nondescript, dull, lethargic, restless, foul mood...everything mix together...rojak...but in a bad way. Even I am not talking much sense now. Two things on my mind now that I think contributes to the lousy mood I am experiencing now. It is abit of the former, but I guess it is more of the latter. It never failed to let me dream endlessly, feeling tired as ever, longing for something so aimlessly. Draining all my energy to the very last bit that I had nothing left for the day. But yet, I cannot resist the lure and had to admit the effect it has on me, never able to put it away from my mind. It kinda pull me away from the reality into the other world that I am enslaved to be in, willingly. OMG....this is getting more morbid than I give credit for...urgh.