Coven Of My Darkest Secrets

Are you not the ONE? Vaguely in my DREAMS FRAY away not from me In your PRESENCE, my REFUGE, I seek my SOLACE My ESCAPISM from this futile, jaded BEING Of endless SORROW and fested with FALLACIES Encased in a SNOWGLOBE Imbued with LONGING Upon the RETURN Of your second COMING

Babies To Come.....And Gatherings...

Ever since the government announces the new baby bonus package, there seems alot more preggy mummies on the move. Joining the queues are some of my friends...in fact, 3 of them...whom will be becoming mummies and daddy over the span from Oct08 - Jan09. I am feeling happy and at the same time, excited too...because I love babies and is looking forward to play with the little ones.

First to come is baby Patrick Jr (the name is not finalised yet but since he will be a baby boy so adopt this name for the time being). Met up with JP and Patrick for dinner and oh my, JP's tummy is quite big now...approaching the last month of the 3rd trimester. P. Jr is scheduled to pop his head and sees the world on 21 Oct 08. He is a healthy and active baby who is estimated to weigh an approximated weight of 3kg on his arrival. P. Jr will be the youngest and newest member to join our yearly gathering come CNY next year...and also the only prince...since the Edmund and Verlisa had 3 little princesses to date (they are trying for a 4th child soon).

Time just passes so fast...I still remembered vividly the day I first met JP. She wasn't even Pat's girlfriend back then but just a uni friend who joined us for outings. And slowly, over time and after much teasing, they got together. Saw them through their courtship days...preparation for wedding and now...to become mummy and daddy for their very first time. So it's kinda of like we (me & hubby) are involved in a way in their lives...am really really happy for them.

We also met up with Marble (nickname) and Lisa, finally because it was hard to meet up with them. They just ROM and is looking for a flat to move in together. Happy for Lisa who got her PR and may they find their own love nest soon. Rarely had the chance to meet everyone up nowadays due to the clashing schedules...but it is nice to meet up once in a while with whoever can make it....over coffee and little snacks...age is catching up and with the current situation (pregnant mummy and what-nots), we have to avoid adrenaline pumping and loud defeaning music locations...must be child-friendly etc...keke...sooner or later we will end up "la kopi" at kpt.

Goodbye Moffiz & Mozzie

I remember the day I took you home
You brought so much sunshine and joy into my life

You were so bubbly and cute
And always dressed in bright orange suits

Never once did you failed
To bring me to my smiles

With your little dancing moves
And your quirky little steps

Farewell my little ones
You'll always be my chum chum

<一个像夏天一个像秋天> 范纬琪

第一次见面看你不太顺眼
谁知道后来关系那么密切
我们一个像夏天一个像秋天
却总能把冬天变成了春天

你拖我离开一场爱的风雪
我背你逃出一次梦的锻炼
遇见一个人然后生命全改变
原来不是恋爱才有的情节

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的玄外音之我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

你了解我所有得意的东西
拆穿我留些意怕我忘形
你知道我所有丢脸的事情
却为我的美好形像保密

如果不是你我不会相信
朋友比情人还死心塌地
就算我忙恋爱把你冷冻结冰
你也不会恨我只是骂我几句

如果不是你我不会确定
朋友比情人更懂得倾听
我的胸怀志意我的有口无心
我离不开darling更离不开你

好怀念...

好想回到从前, 那些无忧无虑的日子
好比在溜冰上, 无拘无束的旋转
让一阵阵的微风, 轻轻的在我脸颊上吹着
仿佛叙说着那些快乐的时光
你是否也听见了吗? 是否也同感深受?

因为..

"...因为想一个人而寂寞, 因为爱一个人而温柔, 因为有一个梦而执着, 因为等一个人而折磨, 因为想一个人而解脱, 因为爱一个人而宽容, 因为有一个梦而放纵, 因为等一个人而漂泊..."

<因为>
-范玮琪-

Disoriented....Restless...

Feel disoriented and extremely restless. Though nothing major happened, but the little issues I am facing right now, when all added up, become one big issue. Haven't been keeping my temper in check...and yes, some of you are stepping on my toes. Agggggrrrrrrrrr...

Throughout the years, I learnt alot about myself. Life hasn't been as smooth-sailing and honey-sweet as before (as in during childhood and even adolescent years)...and there were times when I felt like giving up but yet on the other hand, 我不干心就这样放弃. It is not that I like to make things difficult for myself, but being persistent by nature and also obstinate, I refused to give in just like that. Sometimes, I do admit I am quite hard on myself...and always bring myself down...which brings my self-esteem to the lowest point.

Don't aggravate me further...for you who is trying to malign me so as to look good yourself...I shan't explain much...清者自清...not all will do to your bidding...and the world doesn't only evolved around you. But I am disappointed, totally disappointed...

Digress...digress

Do you reminiscence of the past, of olden times? Or when you passed by places/ architectures that brings back past memories? This can only signify one simple thing: Aging. I was merely passing my comment that only people who are in the process of aging (we all are...esp those approaching the 30s) will always come up with phrases like..."In the past, I used to...". Sounds demoralising? HB replied saying youngsters don't have that much memories yet for them to ponder over their past.

I think we all looked back every now and then, realising how things and people were much simpler, and how much we had really enjoyed back then. But yet, do we want to live in a society that is standstill in the past while the rest of the world is already evolving into the millennium? We've come so far together as a country and I can't deny the fact that technology does ease us in many ways but yet turned us coldly in others.

Sometimes we are so dependent on these state-of-the-art technology that everyone seemed lacking of human touch and warmth. I guess we can never have the best of both worlds...we can only make the best out of it.

Some Updates

Wanna update something about myself but realised nothing worth to update about...such irony. But hor...since I already started this post, I might as well update something about myself...wahahaha...nothing much...nothing spectacular...nothing...just something:

1. brought mum and ah boy to the RSAF Open House together with HB
2. rebonded my hair before it gets really messy, about to turn into lion mane
3. Watched WALL-E and fell asleep..it was a cute show albeit no dialogue
4. went for a movie at GOLD CLASS...cosy armchair but I doubt there'll be a 2nd time, the ticket is exorbitant!!! (ours given FOC by a friend-cum-insurance agent)
5. went mooncake shopping over the wkend, this year purchase was much lesser than last year
6. Managed to "nua" at home on sun afternoon on my sofa, munching on chips, sipping Ribena and be a couch potato