Until now, I am still unable to forgive myself for hurting you. Looking back at the photos and countless cards, just bring back the once-so-sweet but now-gone-forever good times we shared. These memories, will always be etched deep in my heart. I am really really sorry.
In life, we are bound to make many choices. Unfortunately throughout the 20 odd years of my existence, I made some terrible mistakes which I regretted badly. People always say to look ahead, and not to cry over spilt milk. I just can't help it. The weather is rather hot and humid right now, unlike rainy days where my thoughts are let loose and run wild a little. Probably because work hasn't been quite smooth-sailing that I began to question myself...of many many things in life.
Was just browsing through some photos. People changed, times changed, things changed, feelings changed. Made me realised that everything around me is changing, whether I like it anot, I have no choice. One can never outrun time. Even I see changes in myself. I am no longer the carefree, happy-go-lucky girl. Bogged down by work (recently additional dosage of stress), family woes, personal issues, worries and what-not. I can't and haven't had a good laugh for quite some time. Things are happening so fast, time passing by, that I ain't got time to sit down and relax, to ponder, to take time to think. Just blindly trying to accomplish my daily tasks. Isn't there more to life than just trying to make ends meet? Where is that quality life? What am I striving so hard for? Do I really want to continue my life in this madly racing manner till I die of old age or sickness? I shudder at the thoughts.
Aimlessly. Lost. Unfulfilled.