Coven Of My Darkest Secrets

Are you not the ONE? Vaguely in my DREAMS FRAY away not from me In your PRESENCE, my REFUGE, I seek my SOLACE My ESCAPISM from this futile, jaded BEING Of endless SORROW and fested with FALLACIES Encased in a SNOWGLOBE Imbued with LONGING Upon the RETURN Of your second COMING

What Is The World Becoming To?

Once a highly regarded profession (still is) but now the ethics are questionable. What are the ultimate purposes of becoming a doctor? Passion in pursuing breakthrough in the medical/ science realm? For fame, status and wealth? Whatever it is, the patient's life is at stake and as a doctor, you should give your best in treating the patient no matter how poor/ wealthy he/she may be. Unfortunately, not many that we know of think that way and has a passion for curing the sick irregardless of race, age, status. Ridiculous and absurd remarks makes me wonder and worried for the less affordable. Aren't they human as well? Shouldn't they be given as much chance to live, to go for the same medical treatment in order to rectify whatever problem they had and then be able to embrace the beauty of life once more?

Does staying in specific classes of wards determine whether a specialist doctor should operate on a patient anot? You are the doctor, your job is to exercise your expertise and save lives. But it seems to me that things are not that simple nor noble anymore. As nurses and care-givers, you should make the patient as comfortable as possible and yet I do not see any professionalism at all. Totally disgusted and disappointed. Guilty do you not feel, conscience do you not have?

No wonder it was said that for the poor, they rather die than to be struck down by an illness...they will suffer not only mentally, emotionally but also financially.

May God bless my aunt who will be going for an operation tomorrow. May the Lord be there for her, give her strength and courage, and to keep her safe in His Hands. HE is the Healer of all. Speedy recovery, aunt. Take care.

Paper Clouds

Kevin Kern, a contemporary pianist, caught my attention with his well-known "Sundial Dreams" from the album, "The Enchanted Garden". It never failed to have a soothing effect on me. But today, I am going to introduce to you another masterpiece of his..."Paper Clouds". I like the name...sounds whimsical. On your speakers...and tell me how you feel about this song.

Serenity, peace, vast greenlands, freedom, crisp wind, light breeze, long and untrimmed grasses, a little hut and of course the most important ingredient...the clouds.

Picture this....on the hilltop, lies a little red hut...that stands out prominently. I imagine myself, lying freely on the vast greenlands, that outstretched endlessly. Looking up into the skies, admiring the roaming, fluffy clouds...so soft and free while the light, crisp wind ruffled through my hair. Embracing the breeze, enjoying the sights, totally immersed in mother nature. Can you feel it too? Lovely...isn't it?

Photoblog - Dive Trip To Pulau Aur On 01/07/05 - 03/07/05

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Gathered for a group photo at the deck after our 4th dive.

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Getting all geared up for our last dive also known as the Graduation Dive. A tradition held by Rafi's students over the years. That is to do skin diving....dive without the wet suit. The water is cold....

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Last but not least, our last shot prior departure onboard ferry to Mersing Jetty. Twas an unforgettable and exhilarating experience.

Photos courtesy of Jiapei, Brian and moi.

OWC

Documentaries was never the reason for me to be a couch potato for the day until my sista subscribed SCV. I usually just flipped through the channels and settled for the one that caught my attention. Nowadays, occasionally, I will switched to the NGC or Discovery Channel. You'll be amazed at the enormous amount of information you can dig about the nature around us. How spectacular and amazingly life can be, the evolving world, life cycle and many many more. Particularly, I loved watching about sea creatures under the water. Always admired divers who can get so close up and personal with them. Somehow or rather, I wished I was the one...out in the sea, swimming openly together with the creatures. Hence, I decided to take up diving.

Organising was never an easy task. It proved to be an even more tedious trying to set a date that can accomodate everyone. To cut the story short, we managed to settled for a date and went ahead to sign up. We ended up with Waikiki Dive Center, a recommendation by a good friend of mine.

OWC (Open Water Certified) is the very first step to explore the deep waters. A total of 2 lecture, 2 pool sessions and 4 open water dives are required in order to be certified as an OWC diver. Schedules were rather packed as we got to complete the necessary classes and an written exam before going on our dive trip over the weekends. I thought I couldn't make it...a little episode happened during the second pool session.

Phobia....hydrophobia to be exact. Symptoms...panicking and out of breath easily when entering the deep water. I can't control and kept bobbing out of the water (in the pool). I felt as if the air in my lungs are totally drained out and I need to get some fresh air. Trembling all over...partly because of the cold water and also to the anxiety. Finally, I gave up. Totally freak out. Disappointed and angry at myself for being such a loser. How come everyone can do it except me? I was the organiser and yet I couldn't make it. So can you imagine double dosage on the disappointment?

I bet some of my friends were shocked to see me in tears. Overwhelmed by my emotions, tried but just can't seem to control them. Sorry guys, I didn't mean it but some external factor just made it worse. Anyway, I still went ahead to the weekend dive. Another dive instructor was engaged to coach me personally, to clear my pool skills in the open but shallow water. Thank GOD for Rafi, his passion, dedication and patience helped me overcome my phobia. I managed to clear all my pool skills.

Having said that, I joined my friends for all the other 4 dives (5 in total, another leisure dive was roped in). I really enjoyed myself...saw loads of sea creatures. Wrasse, sergeant major, big blue starfish, cushion starfish, turtle, nudibranch, squid and lots of fishes. My favourite is the clown fish (nemo). So mischevious and adorable.

I want to thank those people who took their time off to listen, console and encourage me not to give up. Because if I had, I won't be here, with this entry on my dive trip. I love diving, I love swimming around and with the sea creatures. There are so many things to see, explore and most importantly, I conquered the fear of deep water. Thanks to Ailing & Kelvin for helping so much in making this dive trip possible. To Rafi, for his patience and guidance. To Ailing and Qi, for the constant encouragement and assurance. To all my friends who went along with me for enjoying themselves and making this dive trip a wonderful and memorable one.

Diving is NOT A SPORT but an expensive LIFESTYLE. Yes, I am now an open water certified diver. Am comtemplating on going for the advanced diver course.

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Took this picture on our boat ride back to Mersing Jetty. Time was around 4 plus...look at the sun rays reflecting off the surface of the sea. Don't you just adore nature? Totally mesmerized.