Last day of 2004

31st Dec 2004? What does it signifies? The end of a fruitful year as it ushers us into a new and refreshing 2005? Probably you'll be celebrating your existence on earth this day (happy birthday!!), even expecting a new arrival in your home (read: a baby of course!!). What will you be doing on this day? Preparing for a wild time counting down @ Sentosa or clubbing along the whole stretch of Mohd Sultan, pub hopping perhaps??

This day is special, not for me but for a very good friend of mine. Because on this day, he will be declared leaving bachelorhood for good and pledging himself to be a good husband, and in future, a good father. Yes, he is getting married. I am truly happy for him. But, there is more than one thing to be happy about. Year 2005 will be a good year, at least a good headstart for him. Having plough and slough for the past 4 years, he had finally found a good job, good pay, good benefits and nonethelessly, good prospects. Elated. Bewildered. This is DOUBLE HAPPINESS!! Thank GOD for His grace upon this buddy of mine.

You must be wondering...bewildered?? Yes, I can't find any scientific proof (not that I really spent ages pondering over it) but don't you realised that when you are down and out, things usually just go haywired, for no reason. It'll pushed you to your limits. With positive thinking, you might see this as a chance to build up your character but a slight negativity, will slumped you hard. Depression might even be the end result.

Yet, when things are looking up, it will go high up...all smooth-sailing that you began to wonder if its existence is for real and for good in that sense.

All this boils down to a matter of perspective. How you actually look and interprete at things which in turn, determines how you should walk your life. Oh, I digress. Never mind me. Happy New Year 2005 to you and may the year ahead be a fruitful one with dreams comes true and goals fulfilled.

I'm Back!

I'm back. Back from my long holidays and back to work unfortunately. After a week break, I felt more lethargic than energized. Was in singapore all these while and sad to say, I didn't really have a relaxing day at all except for yesterday. Had been running errands, my goodness, I sure got lots of stuff waiting to be cleared. Managed to accomplished some of the tasks top in my priority list, like clearing up my overloaded-with-trash cabinets. The drawers kinda warped at the bottom. 2 main causes: 1) the material of the cabinets was really really disastrous despite buying from a well-known and much-celebrated foreign furniture maker 2) the cabinets finally succumbed to the huge amount of trash accumulated over the years. Unwanted stuff (mainly notes and unopened letters) contributed to 3 large bags. Now my cabinets looks and are by the way, spick and span. But I got the wardrobe and side cupboard to clear as well. This proves to be a even bigger project, hahaha. So I got to heave it aside for the time being.

For the umpteen times, I am seriously going to be on diet. But I really have gained weight and I think it is getting prominent and into me as well that this is the time to be more religiously in my food intake. I feel so sad and helpless when I had to dress up for an outing to find that most (almost) of my clothes are getting tight at the waistline and my tummy looks kinda bulging. Sad. But I can't help it. I have been indulging in good food all these while when I was on leave, and had 2 servings of all-you-can-eat-buffet in between. Christmas is such a joyous festive season that makes you want to eat more. Ok, maybe I should stop procastinating and really get on to some ground work to start my diet plans rather than be in denial mode and blaming on the holiday mood that sets me swinging from mouth-watery delicacies to irresistable pastries.

Then there was the meeting with my boss about me leaving. Was asked to reconsider and supposed to give him an answer by this week. I wished I am more articulate and vocab-powered so that I can "smoked" him all the way, high up to the clouds. What am I blabbering about?? Bah!!

Nothing Much

My blog hasn't been updated much lately...simply because I was just too lazy to pen down my thoughts. In fact, today is the start of my week-long vacation or rather a long awaited break from work. Nothing interesting except for some irritating and inconsiderate pests I met in the cinema which was not worth me delving any deeper into it.

Mocked

Mocked. I made a fool out of myself. I should have kept everything to myself instead. It was just plain naive of me to think that being open and truthful is the right thing to do but I am wrong. This will be the biggest mistake that I had ever made.

Our Memories

The old times I relished
Of laughter, tears and joy
Though it wasn't all smooth-sailing
Or as rosy as it could be

Like raindrops falling from the sky
Tears welled up in me
For laughter ceased with merry-making
Without you here with me

Now you are gone
Far away from me
Only memories are mine to keep
In my heart, you'll always be

***with intense emotions and quirky thoughts, moi churn out this blog***

Tonight

Today is a warm night. Or is the heat due to the fact that I am still feeling abit feverish? I have been wheezing and coughing non-stop for the past 2 days. In fact, I am on medical leave today. The medicine makes me so weak and drowsy that I spent most of my time snugging in bed and dreaming away. That is one of the reason why I am still up and blogging away simply because I am too AWAKE to fall asleep anytime.

Nothing interesting though, probably just the time to make a decision that will affect my life, at least for the next 2 years.

Truly enough, I feel that the older you get, the more intimidating things seemed to be. Or is it with the process of aging, one's courage will diminished rapidly? The once daredevilish risk-taker character has now become the coward that refused to come out of the protective shell?